Thursday, December 5, 2013

The Truth.

I just want to tell the truth.

And what I am writing may make the Devil mad. Anyhoo.

People think I have changed. And yes, I have! I've been changed. Our marriage has given me a new spiritual life, budding fresh fruit and newfangled changes. For years, I was lost in the maze of the enemy. Problems were just collapsing everywhere. Some felt enormous. Others were small. I felt my life decaying with self-esteem issues, jealousy, and the urges to please others! Frail and weak, I struggled to even wake up in the morning and speak to God. Even 2013 simply started off in the depths of Hell and the road through confusion and despair seemed so long.

I felt incredibly inadequate. But you better believe, God flipped those challenging days around, enriching my days with His mercy and salvation, sending me on a magical adventure with my handsome husband as his Queen. Because of our marriage, I have grown with inspiration and love, steadily wearing my crown. By studying the Word and praying together every single day, I am learning what it truly means to fully transform into a Proverbs 31 woman.

I am forever grateful to have God share His special gift, Mr. Reginald Johnson with me in this lifetime.

Happy Anniversary Honey! You are a dream come true.

Monday, December 2, 2013

Pieces Pt. 1

When you look at me, what do you see?
Sunshine and slopes of grace? Or gloom filled with foothills of mistakes?
The year 2013 was such a fanciful year for me and as it ends, I'd like to reflect on the good and the bad. And I will admit that 2013 did welcome several uninvited seasons where I felt forgotten, pitiless and broken. The Devil was after me, so I believed.
Reflecting over the year of 2013, I sit here and gather the smithereens and thorns of my shattered heart. Over the course of this year, I have been crushed by the lies of friends and family, pushed to the emotional edge numerous times, reeled through a tough engagement, allowed irrelevant opinions to feast upon my soul, lost fake friends who turned and walked away, was laid off after just getting married, stopped believing in my life’s purpose, and the list goes on and on. It hurt so much and the pain sometimes lingers on a bit. Life knocked me down to the point where I didn't want to even pray for myself.
But God...
But God didn’t allow me to lose my way. Through those trials, He got me through the pain and brought me over those mountains.
Can you say the same? I hope so. Keep holding on. I’m trying too.
Be blessed and restored.