Thursday, July 25, 2013
1. I wanted to be married at age 27. God had a different plan and I am thankful. But I was close! Lol!
2. I am currently working on my second book, ‘Malachi.’ Stay tuned.
3. I absolutely hate shaving my legs. Like seriously.
4. I merely paid $366 for my wedding dress. And it was perfect. Just for me.
5. I have the wildest crush on Mariah Carey. No one will ever understand.
6. I am in love with Ice Mountain water. So tasty and refreshing.
7. I love pink nail polish. It’s demure, ladylike, and timeless. Other colors are fabulous. True. But classic pink polish is soft, elegant and trendy!
8. I am forever trying to find ways to sway my husband to get us a kitten. I mean, it would be a subtle cure to 'baby fever'.
9. I care too much for other people’s feelings. Trust, I am working on that.
10. I want to have twin girls. I know, I know, that’s social suicide.
11. I am madly in love with a man named Reginald. Oh wait, not so random, huh?
Wednesday, July 24, 2013
‘How does it feel to be married?’
Lately, this is the question that I get from coworkers, family and friends. ‘How does it feel to be a wife?’ ‘Do you feel any different?’ I will tell you this: it is an indescribable feeling- Too beautiful for words. And my perception on love has undeniably changed.
It is SO electrifying that Reginald is my husband. To come together to become one flesh blows my mind! Our marriage doesn’t just surround the idea that I stole his last name-hehehe! Our marriage is a living organism that is constantly evolving, morphing into something sensational! Overjoyed, we are on the journey in perfecting our marriage. With a nutritious blend of Agape love, Philia love, and Eros love, our marriage is a nourishing product of God's love.
My first few weeks as a married woman- Fascinating! My husband and I did not live together prior to tying the knot so it was very interesting to move in with each other. Still an adjustment. :D Newsflash: Marriage goes beyond the wedding day, shiny rings and living with each other. Anyone can shack up. Anyone can have a wedding. And anyone can purchase rings. Marriage is deeper than that. It’s where you must faithfully put your mind, body and soul into it. And I am learning that a wife utilizes her skills to help institute the embellishment of the home and the enhancement of her husband. More importantly, a wife reverences her husband. In other words, the wife SUBMITS herself to her husband, and I am still learning the necessity of submission in a marriage. God aint through with me yet folks.
Every morning, I gaze at my fine husband while he sleeps coolly like a baby as I dress for work. This is the man who I will help raise RJ with. This is the man who I will bear children with. This is the man who I will be with for the rest of my life. This is the man who promises to love me forever. Then he wakes up, smiling back at me. That smile motivates me to orientate myself to be a godly woman as his wife.
My man is not just my best friend. He is not just a cancer survivor. He is not just my soul mate. Reginald is my husband and I promise to build a strong marriage with him to last a lifetime.
Sunday, July 21, 2013
Sitting on the patio in the backyard today, I find myself constantly staring into the sky. The clouds are gray, thick, looking as if they are glutted with rain. However, these gloomy blisters dare not burst. Sun worshippers are surely full with glee because the sun is shining dazzlingly out here, kissing my skin.
Man. Life loves to test me. Geeeeeeeeeez…….
I say this because…..last week was probably one of the unfavorable weeks of my life. A nightmare came true. I was smacked in the face and shoved in the pits of the Devil’s lair. Yet, for some reason, on this day, I can’t stop smiling.
Last week, I felt so discouraged, embarassed and beat-down. I was thrown off track. I kept asking, “Why did this happen to me?” I was in such a funk. But then the truth whispered into my ears. LIFE IS NOT FAIR. But deep down in my heart, I know that my God is fair.
And my mother drilled in my brain when I was a little girl that God promises His children that all things work together for good for those who loves Him. And if you haven’t noticed, (I don’t know how you wouldn’t) I love God so much. Yes, I make ungodly mistakes I am not proud of. There were times I set the cross down and spat out words that weren't holy. I have my share of ups and downs. I STRUGGLE. Who doesn’t? And yes, I still throw tantrums when life burns me with burdens. But in the end, God has always rescued me and He isn’t done with me.
After this past week, I could have lost my mind. You folks know I am the Stress Queen. (During the wedding planning crunch, a not-so-darling side of me emerged. Hahaha.) But you should know that God is my anchor. And I know this is a test of my Faith. Throughout my spiritual journey, I know that Jesus probably yelled at me numerous times. "WHAT THE HELL DO YOU BELIEVE IN ME FOR? STOP WORRYING TAMARA." Therefore, I plan to hold on to my cross tightly and maintain my patience because I know that God has a plan for me. In fact, a few nights ago, I asked God for a sign of my purpose in life. Well…..He answered. So, now, I am on a fresh journey and I know that it is worth my while baby. I can't go wrong.
Despite this cloudy day, the sun continues to shine lustrously and my spirit will do the same. Before anything else, I plan to pray through the pain as I chase Jesus.
Life is like the game Tag. Jesus chases us, pouring his love upon us. Well, right now, it is my turn to lace up and chase Him for I know He has a scrumptious blessing for me!
Oh the anticipation!